Today I've been doing a little bit of work, quite a bit of the old webs, and a substantial amount of YouTube binging the old hip-hop gospel artists, and my mother had one of those 'Do good, try to win' talks about her legitamate and healthy concern at my lack of motivation.
Truth is, I have a lot of motivation, but often just motivation to do the things I'm passionate about, and if I can't study hard, surely it's becuase I'm not (at least in the short term) passionate enough about studying? See I've been thinking that the way we run our society is a bit lame in some ways, becuase although I'm relatively smart, I'm not hugely dilligent, and I find that sometimes subjects aren't what I thought they would be. For example, English is, in my mind, writing, which is something I love to do, but I find that LitLang is a circumlocutive celebration of looking at why books are classics, without really understanding on a personal level why they are good. That said, a lot of that is just me trying to sound deep, The Big Sleep is a fantastic book, and I do enjoy analysing it, but it's like Stephen Fry (who keeps popping up lately) wrote on the back of my sister's Jeeve's and Wooster (fantastic books): 'You don't analyse such sunlit perfection, you just bask in it's warmth and splendor.'
This post is, by average standards, something of a rant. You see, my Uncle Terry left school at fourteen and learnt all about watches, and now he repairs them for a living. It's a long standing family joke that he does do much work, and I don't suppose he's raking in the cash, but he's incredibly happy. (And, incidentally, has an obsession with weeing out-of-doors) Obviously, money doesn't make you happy and everything, that's been the moral of family B-movies for decades, but what gets me is the whole concept thrown at me by society that becuase I got good GCSE's, I have to go to uni and get a challenging, globe shaking job that stretches me into a pioneer in my field, and I really feel that that's not necessarily what I will be, because just being in a cool team of people with a common objective seems enough to be pretty cool, whether that goal be a bio-mechanical breakthrough or a new batch of products to package.
The catch to all this, of course, lies in that the changes in the education scheme have changed...
Oh dear. I have decided not to delete that ,becuase it's so wonderfully stupid of me to have written it in the first place. Basically though, you have to go to university to do anything now, and I can't help feeling like I'm being churned out of some lame system that's making more pioneers than there are fields for them to be in.
A farmer was once standing in the middle of his harvest, when a man driving past stopped and asked him:
'What are you doing?' To which the farmer replied, "I'm getting a noble peace prize."
The man couldn't see the logic in this, and so probed the farmer further. "Well," explained the farmer, "I here that noble peace prizes are given to those who are out standing in their field."
Sorry, I'm not sure what's worse - this whiney post or that appauling joke. The gist is, I don't really know where my future's headed, but it would be nice if it was somewhere more awesome than the norm.
This has to be the most boring post for a long time, but that's two posts in two days, so hopefully the novelty will add some... novelty.
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